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so confused :(
ok..i have been a "christian" my whole life.. (baptist if anybody wants to know)...anyways...i'm so confused right now! i don't know what i believe..i don't know if i even believe there is a god! but i feel like if the god that i've prayed to my whole life is there..he just doesn't care about me anymore because i have genuinely gotten on my knees and begged for forgiveness for everything and i still feel nothing...absolutely nothing
i've gotten to the point where i don't even feel guilty anymore...i don't have any desire to stop...and i've been looking at other beliefs...most recently satanism. (i know..it kinda scares me too...but in a way theistic satanism makes sense to me)
does anybody have any advice? or has anybody gone through this other than me? how did you get back to god? or does he just not care about some ppl?
(sorry this is so long)
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