Preparing for counselling session tomorrow, bad PMT anger and a really annoying colleague at work the last few days really are NOT a good combination
Having printed out some pictures of my rancid, bully of a brother (to help me connect with how bad he made me feel when he was abusive to me) has certainly done the trick. I feel so angry I could really destroy something. This isn't a good way to feel at all. The last few weeks I was more emotional & wanted to cry but this week it's like I'm out for revenge. Trouble is, since my brother's no longer alive, I can't take my revenge on him.
I printed off the eulogy from his funeral too. That doesn't make good reading either, people saying nice things about someone I hate???? Arrggghhhhhh, roll on counselling tomorrow and a bit of relief I hope.......
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