Thank you xx I'm feeling better today I think. I sometimes... well, often... struggle to manage to do things with my day. Most of it is spent almost obsessively scrolling through my phone, if there's nowhere I definitely need to be, like I'm afraid to move.
But I'm trying to learn techniques to change that. I think I'm going to get a whiteboard thing to put up on the wall so I can plan and maybe even carry out tasks. I'm trying to break things down into smaller chunks so instead of cleaning the kitchen, it's just washing a few dishes. Just learning how to put one foot in front of the other, really.
I struggle a lot with how meaningless my life feels. I have a lot of triggers I try to avoid, and I guess facing them will take work. I don't even know what a lot of them are, I do so much avoiding. But I'm going to college in a couple of months so I'll need to try.
I'll stop rambling now.