I remember being this way in the beginning. I used to freak out when thinking about people seeing my scars..what they would think..how they would treat me. But, slowly I became okay with my scars and decided that i didnt care what other people thought. It's my life and im not going through it ashamed of myself, my decisions, and my victory over my own demons.
It still comes up from time to time, as i do not try to hide my scars. I find that people are generally more accepting than I could have imagined. SI'ers are unfortunately a growing population and more people struggle with it or love people that struggle with it.
Nothing I say will help you. I wish you courage in your journey..and all my best wishes. :)
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