dont really belong here
but..yeah.
I suddenly wonder why im posting as im not distressed about the weight loss, not at all.
This is hard to admit, and i'll likely delete very soon, but i find myself using grief as an excuse to get back to my ED.
How handy.
How convenient.
How believabkle.
How utter ****, to use this time in that way...
Thats the bad bit. But i am.
i suddenly find myself almost excited again about it asll.
The memories of the pain and shame seem very dim.
No, not almost excited, no almost about it.
Sorry to post. No idea what im asking for.
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