If I get to speak to my CPN tomorrow she might just say I'm getting a visit from crisis anyway and offer nothing more. Even if she offered more those options are only to see the duty CPNs, to have an earlier appointment with my CPN if she's not taking time off, or go into hospital which likely won't be offered. None of those options will make anything better. Hospital would just physically trap me and expose me to the pain of others. Life is one huge agony and the only way to make it stop is to kill myself.
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