I feel alright. Obviously nothing has happened as of yet, so in a way that's good. I'm not sure why exactly, but thinking that it's going to work is equally as scary as the thought that it might now work. In a way I guess I've gotten "comfortable" living this way, or I don't know who I am without it, in a way.
It just feels so real. Now that I'm on medication I feel like I can't explain it away as a bad day or a though period. It's probably not a good way of viewing it. I'm trying to just look at it the same way I see my allergy pills or my asthma medication - just something I need to take to help my body function the way it's supposed to. I don't know why antidepressants should feel any different than that. Maybe it just takes time to get used to the idea.
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