grrr yes the system sux!!! a person who commits fraud will get more jail time then someone who steals the rest of a childs life.
also wanted to add that the pleasure you experienced during the abuse is actually very common, not everyone experiences it but a lot do..i just began to talk about this with my counsellor, and my jaw dropped when she told me i wasnt the only one...it can happen for many reasons, firstly we cant control what our bodies feel, and also you mentioned looking forward to special time with your dad, we confuse our own minds but sometimes any kind of attention is better than no attention. hope that made sense, my counsellor explained it better than i did, oh well.
i hope you are able to take the step of seeing as counsellor again hun, if you find one you trust ect it will be very helpful.
well done for speaking out against your dad, i never had that kind of courage.
take care hun xoxoxox
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