[Mek]

It all began at an early age. The one man that was suppose to protect and keep me safe, is the one who betrayed me. See at first, I thought it was normal. I guess that was in the beginning when it was only touching. I feel ashamed knowing that I liked it, i was to young to realize it was wrong, and only understood that it felt good. I actually use to look forward to "my special time with daddy". Knowing this makes me sick and want to vomit, and yet somehow I still did. Over time it progressed to oral and then vaginal penetration. At the age of tweleve my own "daddy" stole my life. He took it all away. I will never get to experience so many firsts. He stole that from me. The first experiment, the first touching, the kissing, the first time having sex. I guess maybe that is why I feel like I am a lesbian. I dont feel safe alone with any man, because of him I have issue. I have intimacy issues, I have commitment issues, I have boundary issues, I guess Im just really one big issue!