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one_step_closer · 07-12-2019, 07:48 PM

I'm regretting agreeing to phone calls.

The best thing would be extra support from my CPN but I obviously can't have that when she's off.

Life is hugely overwhelming. The thought of what my future could be like is even more overwhelming.

I went out to Tesco when it was dark and it felt like I was wandering at first. It has made me feel like I really should be doing something risky but I am so, so tired. I am useless.

I want to smash my head off everything because I keep realising there is a chance that my brother might read my posts at some point/could be right now. I need privacy!

07-12-2019, 07:48 PM	#1917
one_step_closer The Shadow of the Day Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Scotland	I'm regretting agreeing to phone calls. The best thing would be extra support from my CPN but I obviously can't have that when she's off. Life is hugely overwhelming. The thought of what my future could be like is even more overwhelming. I went out to Tesco when it was dark and it felt like I was wandering at first. It has made me feel like I really should be doing something risky but I am so, so tired. I am useless. I want to smash my head off everything because I keep realising there is a chance that my brother might read my posts at some point/could be right now. I need privacy!
	I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much. Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass. You didn't come this far just to come this far.