[Tessar]

Been thinking deeply about my childhood & the emotional abuse/bullying I was subjected to. Finally I'm allowing a lifetime of repressed emotions to surface. It's scary to face the impact it's had on me & what I lost as a result. I've spent years on & off working on this & I feel 'ready' (if you can call it that) to try & talk about it to someone else (my counsellor tomorrow). I really want to get it out but am worried I'm going to bottle it. Will I be too scared of the overwhelming effect & embarrassed/wary of letting such emotions show to someone else (even someone I trust). Will they just look at me like "what are you going on about, pull yourself together". I really want to let it out & know I have to talk about it to finally rid myself of the nasty darkness & feeling of badness inside. They have to go, they really do otherwise I feel I may burst from the inside out & it wont be pleasant.