heya hun, ure not wasting space at all! i have been through a lot of bullying in the past and yeah i still have issues because of it such as trusting and self confidence. It used to be so bad i wouldnt go out socially because i thought my friends were just my friends out of pity and tht they really didnt like me at all - after all, if the bullies were treating me like crap, and they didnt even no me, then my friends must really dispise me - WRONG! i had to learn tht the only way i was going to gain even a little self confidence back was to start socialising, stop letting things botherme etc. but the only way i could do tht then was to 'fake it'. fake being confident wen out, start random conversations and ifppl looked at me funny and mademe sure they didnt like me, then tell myself 'who cares? not everybody has to like me' over and over again. Trust me, it wasnt easy and i still struggle now, tho these days, its more 'me' than 'faking it' Its how i am now. My motto to myself on the bad days is 'fake it to make it'. if it can work for me, then theres hope for u chick!. Dont give up trying becauseit will get easier,it just takes time to feel better wen ure self esteem has taken such a battering. There are ppl out there u can trust, who wont treat u like crap and who will like u for who u are.
I hope this helps
much love and hugs
Dani
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