I feel very out of control of everything. I have such hatred for myself and the evil I cause. I'm such a horrible person and I cant cope with myself. I've been ok since I was furloughed because I had to pack and clean and paint and unpack. But now it's as done as I can manage. And I dont constructively know what help to ask the cmht for. Theres nothing wrong apart from the fact I'm destroying myself and I hate myself. How do I stop being such a fat,selfish,horrid person?
I cant see the future anymore. I could before. And I cant stop thinking how much better people would be if I died.
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