I can't believe it...
So I realized last night that it has been two months since I last SI! And since I last struggled with my ED. I couldn't believe so much time had passed. Then I had a minor panic attack...first one in awhile. Thankfully my best friend picked up her phone, and talked me through it famously.
See, lately, I have been thinking about not eating again (def. not helped by the fact that I've had the flu and lost 5 pounds in a week), but I realised how much harder it is to deal with the hunger now, and I want to eat.
Last night was the first time I wanted to cut, but I didn't...I called a friend instead. That shows me that, incredibly, even though I think I'm still failing, even though I'm still struggling with so much, something is happening. I'm glad I'm able to be on this board.
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