I really like the idea of the inspiration board, Id never thought about anything like that! so I'm definitely going to give that a go! :)
And my mam is quite supportive but I wont talk to her about it because I just feel awkward, and at the minute she's on holiday so I'm staying with my grandma and none of my family know anything so I don't really have any one to talk to at the minute, so right now I think it might be worth another trip to the doctors.
And I'll see my mam about phoning up camhs and asking to be seen sooner as I think it would do me a lot of good!
Thanks for the advice! xxx