I don't want to say anything because she's interpreting a lot of neutral things as bad things, like the way I look and the things I say. She's annoyed with me again today. I can't seem to do much right.
I'm feeling really low and stuck again with the thought that no matter what I do with my life things will just get worse. It's bad enough things being as they are now, I really don't know how I'm going to cope with additional pressures which will surely be forced upon me soon. I miss my old CPN. I miss my psychologist. I need to talk but shouldn't be allowed to talk anyway because I don't deserve support. Hate myself.