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Old 22-01-2020, 07:57 PM   #2077
one_step_closer
The Shadow of the Day
 
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Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: Scotland

Thank you both. My head feels heavy, full, painful, and tired. I just want to give up on life. I want to do something really self destructive and I'm sick of myself for not doing anything. I have no energy right now and I keep thinking about if I had to go to hospital and would then get less sleep and would feel awful. Such an excuse. I really want my self harming abilities to go back to how they used to be. When I was causing some good damage and when I was overdosing 1-3 times a month.

I went to Money Matters to get help filling in my PIP form today. The advisor basically just wrote 'no change' for all the questions. She said I might still be asked to go for an assessment but I really hope not. With the mobility question I was worried about she said it does reflect my difficulties it just isn't worded well for MH stuff so that was a relief.

I'm so tired of battling life but I know it can't get any better only worse. I know I keep saying that.

I'll need to try hard to make it to the gym group tomorrow.





I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.

Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.

You didn't come this far just to come this far.


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