Nah, I'm alright.
I have been somewhat honest but I'm having trouble trusting professionals at the moment. Just feel like I'm at war with myself and then other people. I think I'm becoming bitter. I really dont like this version of myself but then again I've never liked any version. Its saddening.
I haven't been self harming since but I sometimes dont take my meds when the staff give them to me. Also, as an alternative to SH I've been watching really distressing documentaries about horrible things which make me sob. If I feel like self harming I'll just watch them. Like emotional self harm. Dunno. Dunno anything anymore