when i was six my brother sexually abused me. for years i blocked out the memories and recently (past few years) I've begun to remember. at night is the worst when i can't sleep and there is a constant cycle inside my head of things that make me scream. i haven't told my parents. i haven't told my friends. i feel so alone and i just want to forget. he still touches me. some guys at school also say things about my body and say what they are going to do to me. even strangers sometimes stare at me. i have begun to hate and blame myself. i just wrote this because i don't want to hide anymore. i just want someone to know. i don't want to be alone anymore.