I'm almost 3 years SH free, although I still have a few ups and downs (RYL has been a real help this week in keeping me away from it).
When I was first starting to recover, before I could learn to cope without doing anything I used to go down to the haberdashery (Hickeys or any other shop that sells fabric) once a week and buy big lengths of plain white cotton. Then whenever I felt the urge really strongly I used to take a bit and rip it into strips, one by one by hand. It's expressing the anger and letting out the urge, but not on yor own body. It's not a long term solution but for starting out it really helped me. Hopefully it will help anyone else who's just starting out and looking for a release; it's much better to hurt the cotton than to hurt yourself!
Good luck to everyone in recovery: it is definitely possible and there are many different ways to find it, you just need to find the way that suits you best!
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