Thank you all. I really appreciate you being here for me. I feel bad replying because it bumps up my post but I don't want to ignore your kind posts, either.
Yeah, the time of year does contribute a lot to it. Most, if not all, of my past admissions and/or suicide attempts have happened in the beginning of autumn. The leaves and such, while pretty, remind me of being in hospital which brings back painful memories.
I want to ask my Dad if he'll help me pay for some food package thing, like lite n easy where they give you the food for a week. But I'm scared cause I don't want to bring it up, and he's unwell so doesn't need the stress of the money. But at the same time if this continues I'm going to risk getting worse and not caring, and giving up on life. Plus, I should be old enough now to know how to feed myself, not need someone to give me food.
Thanks again x
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