[Katshia]

I never thought I would be here. Alive. Much less with doing the things I'm doing. I self injured (cutting) for 9 years. From when I was 10 till 19. It was a habit. It was all I knew. I NEEDED it. I never thought I would live past 20, and even now at 22 I still feel as if this can't be me.

I guess that means I've been 'clean' or whatever you want to call it for going on three years.

Three
whole
years

I remember how many times I tried to stop, and failed.
I feel it must have been hundreds of times.

But one day. I didn't cut.
And I didn't cut the next day.
Or the next.
Or the next.

And here I am today.

Now don't go thinking it was easy. I still to this day have the urge at times. And as only those who have been through the this hell called SI can know how hard it is to fight that urge.

So I just wanted to stop here and say, you can get through it.
You can mess up, and start again.
And one day, even though you cant even begin to imagine reaching it, you will be at a point where you realize your in control.

Best of luck to all of you still struggling, and remember every day you dont SI is a day making your stronger.