It's still only muted feelings but I think that with the pressure of a new job is probably the cause.
I guess I just have trouble taking myself seriously when it comes to this. I'm good at supporting other people in the same place but it's so much harder with myself. I just can never get myself to the point where I can admit or believe that I have a real problem. I wish there were some trick to convincing yourself. I could really use that right now.