oh lord I tried
so I had been clean from self harm for over a decade and in the last 12 months it has all snowballed into a big ball of wobbly wobbly timey wimey mess.
I needed to reach out to a place that I knew I could trust so I wanted to come back here and hopefully reconnect with a system of support.
I also start ED therapy this week (first time ever) at the age of 34. To say I am scared is an understatement. I am a big ball of mess and no clue what to do differently right now.
So here I am admitting I have gone back to old habits big time and hoping to come back out of this again