So i haven't posted here or logged in in awhile. Things have been ok recently. I haven't self harmed for just over 3 months. Out of the blue the urges are back. I'm finding it really difficult to keep control. I feel like i'm blaming my partner for feeling like i can't self harm because he will see and that will cause more problems which makes me feel awful. I feel like i've come full circle and really don't know what to do.