I think facing up to all of this and trying to be kind to yourself and acknowledge that you did nothing wrong is really hard for you, so will be making you feel worse about yourself. If that makes sense. I'm sorry things are really traumatic for you at the moment. Do you get on ok with your therapist?
I'm glad you're not physically self harming but emotional self harm is just as awful. I hope you can find a way to reduce that too.
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