Have you talked to your friend about how the way he is acting and treating you is making you feel? If he still treats you badly then I suggest cutting off all contact with him since you don't need negative people around when you are trying to get better.
Has anyone ever told you that they hate you? If not, what have they done to make you feel that way? Maybe just sitting down with these people and have a conversation about how they are making you feel could help you feel better.
You are not incapable of doing anything. You have the choice to either stop doing everything you enjoy doing (riding your horses, ect.) or to get out there and keep fighting to get to a place in your life where you will actually be content and hopefully get to a point where you are truly happy. Go for a walk, join a group, find ways to meet new people, ride your horses... Take control of your life and your happiness because honestly, you're the only one who can do these things. Yes, doctors and other people can support you through these bad times, but it's really down to you.
I hope I'm not coming off as rude because I'm not trying to be. I just have been in this situation before and I know you can do this.
|