I cant look forward to anything anymore ive tried to set goals and i cant look forward to them just worry about them. im sorry i know that it sounds like im just whining and being annoying i just honestly dont know what to do.
In all honesty my whole life is a trigger.
I have have one friend (i find people difficult) but i love him, turns out he used me, he knew what had gone on in my past, now he has a gf he doesnt want to know me. I thought we sorted things out but hes acting very funny towards me now.
I work with a lot of sharp objects (scapols, blades, knifes etc.) which i find really triggering
I was admitted to hospital and discharged the night before my uni exams all of which i failed
Everybody in my life hates me, im stupid and fat
Im going to loose my job
I can no longer ride my horses because im not good enough for them
Im incapable of doing anything
and no one can help me
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