Thank you. Im sorry for not having much helpful to say. I do like the crisis services (especially the crisis team) but I am so scared of risking losing my freedom and of locked doors and stuff. I'm scared of the hospital including A&E really. I know it probably sounds weird lol. I think it may be a bit of having to face up to actually being in a crisis. I'm not too good at that.
I spoke to my support worker today, who despite our occasional disagreements has worked really hard to help me keep going the last 5-6 months especially. She's been very angry with how things have been dealt with for some weeks really.
Anyway the long and short of it is that we are meeting with my new CPN on Thursday. My risks are really quite high at the moment but hopefully we can catch it in time and with outpatients/community.
Thank you all, I really do appreciate your thoughts, suggestions and kindness and hugs.