I could e-mail the Samaritans, good idea. I think I would struggle to phone but I could try e-mailing, thank you.
I'm having a lot of stuff going on inside and around me that are reminding me of before I had a breakdown 14 years ago. Some of the people who are talking to me are going to help me, which is good. But people in my life (family, fiancÚ) don't like how that makes me. I keep going to different places. Some of them are pretty but some of them aren't.
I want to die and if they help me I will. But I also don't want to hurt people I love. But I'm already hurting them.