Sometimes you have to give up things you don't want to so that you can get yourself back on track health wise. You may not want to quit your job because it's good pay, but as you said above, it's too stressful for you to go out there because there are too many people and there are a lot of triggers involved with your work. You may not want to sell your horses, but they aren't getting enough attention they really need. Yes, you love them and they are one of your reason for fighting through this, but if you don't concentrate on yourself right now then everything else wont get back on track either. You will be able to make it through anything even if you don't believe that at the moment. You just have to be willing to do whatever it takes to get yourself better so that you can handle work and everything else. That is my own opinion, though...
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