Everything feels so utterly hopeless. I've put some things in place for the future despite how I've been feeling - like signing up for a first aid course, applying for a job, joining a jogging group, enquiring about volunteering - but this is what I do to make it look like I'm moving forward. Nothing ever feels good and I often fail to do things because I'm so anxious or low. My mood gets in the way of everything. The sharp emotional pain is mostly gone, for now, but I'm back to having to deal with the ache of living like this.
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