I really don't want to do life any more. I don't know how to cope. I've had 2 phone calls from crisis but I can't manage to express anything that is going on. It's the same with my support worker who I saw today. People ask me why I was contacting my CPN and what's going on etc and I don't have the words to explain. I must be making things up or overreacting. I really wish I wasn't so tired and was better at self harming so I could go on a self harm spree. I was at the treatment room today and my burn is looking much better which means I really should create something new. I deserve harm and punishment and I need to always have some damage created by me. I'm going to have to get on with overdosing soon. I'm just so overwhelmed with life but I can't seem to kill myself. Everything is emotional agony. I am so hugely distressed.
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