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Old 09-12-2019, 03:54 PM   #1919
one_step_closer
The Shadow of the Day
 
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Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: Scotland

I really don't want to do life any more. I don't know how to cope. I've had 2 phone calls from crisis but I can't manage to express anything that is going on. It's the same with my support worker who I saw today. People ask me why I was contacting my CPN and what's going on etc and I don't have the words to explain. I must be making things up or overreacting. I really wish I wasn't so tired and was better at self harming so I could go on a self harm spree. I was at the treatment room today and my burn is looking much better which means I really should create something new. I deserve harm and punishment and I need to always have some damage created by me. I'm going to have to get on with overdosing soon. I'm just so overwhelmed with life but I can't seem to kill myself. Everything is emotional agony. I am so hugely distressed.





I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.

Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.

You didn't come this far just to come this far.


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