Things are bad enough now, I can't imagine what they're going to be like in the evening. I keep thinking things are getting worse and then they just get further worse. I've done some minor self harming, because I can't do anything major, but it hasn't helped. I'm listening to white noise. I have my glitter lamp on. I'm just eating snacks because the process of making lunch feels like too much. There is absolutely no solution other than death. I don't know if I can phone my CPN, I wish I could text her. I've had enough.
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