Try to take a step back from the ED thoughts and ask yourself, what will being thin really acheive? Will you be happier? Will you be on your way to making the most out of life? You are not a failure for not being "thin enough" - the ED will never let you feel thin enough. What made you start recovery in the first place? Could you write down a list of reasons why your ED sucks, and a list of all the things you'll be able to do without it?