I can relate to this. Feeling listless is horrible because there's never really anything that helps. But it certainly sounds like you regret taking the path that you did and using behaviours; can you try and hold onto that for the future? It might help you at least avoid feeling worse through bingeing and purging, even if you struggle to feel better in the situation.
Also, please don't feel stupid. Sometimes we don't make the wisest of choices but in the moment it can feel like it's the only way through. Now you've had a chance to reflect on it, it gives you an opportunity to move on from this.
Last edited by Epicene : 21-04-2015 at 06:09 PM.
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