The person who I spoke to from crisis last night told me to phone tonight and that she's on. My CPN wants me to phone too but I just get so anxious. I prefer face to face support. I might just try and get through tonight on my own, I'm holding on for my meeting at the charity tomorrow. I say that but if the suicidal feelings get really big again I don't know what I'll do. I don't feel able to phone crisis right now, I'll try to answer if they phone me but I don't think I can make the call.
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