*hugs*
Maybe you should speak to your friend. Lies tend to come back to haunt you. If she already once knew your problems with eating, it won't be such a big shock. It's hard to understand something if you've never been through it yourself, but good friends will always be there for you to support you. She'll understand in her own way.
Unfortunately, if you do keep rejecting invitations to places, people may stop inviting you. Why don't you make an effort and invite them to your house to watch DVDs or something? You won't have to go out, you don't have to eat anything if you don't want to, and it'll be in your comfort zone.
Is it all social situations that you feel anxious about or just those relating to food? It might be worth trying to calm and relax yourself before going to these wee gatherings, instead of thinking about it loads and putting yourself off it.
Help is available, and it's up to you to take it. Unless you're willing and want it, nobody can force you to get help. Some might find that hard to understand is the only thing. Just remember that it's there for when you need it, and don't be afraid to reach out for it.
Everyone deserves help, and everyone deserves to be happy. You certainly don't sound happy at the moment. *hugs* You don't have to keep doing this to yourself you know. People love you for who you are, they want to help, they want you to be happy.
Please take care of yourself
xo
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