[Snow White.]

I've been feeling down and suicidal for a while now and tonight I'm just stressed to the max, there's so much to do and I've binged a lot and I hate myself.

I don't know what I'll need from this thread long-term but right now I just need somewhere to write and be with people where I can be honest.

I'm really, really struggling tonight. I'm stressed with uni, food, my complete fail at finding volunteering. Spending too much money. Being a giant loser basically. I know I got into honours and that's great, it's the only reason I'm not killing myself right now but what sort of reason is that if I'm just, ugh.

For the first time I'm starting to assess my life longterm and realise. I'm not getting better.
Sure I'm doing things but really, I'm back where I was years ago.