I'm really, really low. I went to the gym with my support worker. I thought exercise is meant to make you feel good but...? I'm totally crashing and don't know what to do. My brother is still struggling after splitting up with his partner which is making me feel worse. I just want it to be time to go to bed. I have a cat on my lap right now but if I still feel terrible when he's down I need to do some self harming. So many people around me are struggling too and I can't cope with all of the keeping up with what's going on with them and trying to offer them support. I feel like most of the people I talk to have mental health problems and I'm easily affected negatively by what's happening to them and I can't just abandon people or they'll see me as a bad friend. I'll still be thinking about everything that people are going through anyway. I just want to die because everything about life is too painful. Please don't let me be trapped here. I'm crying and I need a person.
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