There is a strangely 'ok' background to things at the moment apart from regular spikes of dread and panic about my brother, the difficult things in life, and what could happen in the future.
I emailed the fire person this morning but she hasn't replied yet. The GP surgery also phoned and left a message for me to phone them back which I managed to do and they asked me to make a routine appointment.
I went to the gym group and it was alright.
Something weird and stabby emotionally in my brain is bugging me though.
I'm not sure if I like the strangely ok background as weird as that might sound. I'm still really low and anxious etc but it has changed a bit and it just feels ??? I need some proper communication from the men because I am putting people in danger. I am such an idiot.