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Old 06-07-2019, 12:37 PM   #1
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Desperate to start M and Y

As you know I have trying out the whole nootropics situation, as I am literally with focus, concentration as I feel that these things are letting me down and stopping myself from doing well at colleges and I got sick n tired of being told "it's your dyspraxia that's causing your focus issues, there's nothing we can do" and things being really hopeless with it or to be "it's just due current predicament or due Fibromyalgia," but no remedy for it.

I had tried listening to soothing music while working, mediating and does help a little bit but doesn't give me the same effect and even drink a cup of coffee, improve sleep and exercise and the effects were will still quite minimal. I have already developed a huge tolerance for coffee anyway, I drink cups all the time for years and years.

But I really at a stage where I want to officially give M or V a try for a month to see what happens from my psychiatrist.
But how can mention it to Dr Kate without her automatically assuming its just "dyspraxia" "depression-related symptom" or "situation related, just needs a few friends and job bs" and without her knowing that I have actually tried M and ordered elsewhere and used a few while I was on my access course I 2008-2009. If I tell her that I have ordered M and been using it on/off it could off my supply... and then affect my further studies and bring back into the same cycle and since using the M it worked sufficiently well, no issues, I have got a lot done while I was at college and paid attention to my tutors the whole time I was there. I also found that when I was on them my motivation was 100%, I wanted to engage more with the material, stay up late and get stuff done regardless and I never felt "sleepy" apart from around 5 -6pm (when its considered normal) and around 11 pm ready for bed and I was able to pull myself away from social media and disengage myself from unproductive activities. I rarely used my phone anyway apart from Spotify, Youtube, alarm clock, Hold, Forrest, Wunderlist, and Evernote.

So that is where I am at the moment if anyone can help me?

Last edited by yoyogirl : 06-07-2019 at 03:19 PM. Reason: It's actually V (not Y)

Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.

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