I can understand that you may feel the meds are clouding your thoughts, but just think. If you didn't take those meds, just how much worse you would feel???
I urget you to get an appointmnet sooner than 2 weeks as it sounds like you are really struggling and I'm worried you'll stop taking your meds which is never a good idea if it's without medical help.
Hang in there and talk to your care team.