I do understand what you are saying, because I get stomach pain with anxiety, but this is different I think.
It's just that I don't seem to care about anyone.
The nurse described in some detail what I did and how i hurt that person a couple of years ago, and when I've always felt terrible about it, this time, I smiled, almost laughed.
When I went on my walk last night, I thought about how easily I could kill someone, because it was dark. And well, why the hell not?
I'm sure I'm becoming more like this person by the day.
At risk of running into the thread I have in GSA, I'd rather not talk to the staff about this. I have the child protection meeting soon, and I don't want them thinking I would hurt her.
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