yoyogirl- I'm sorry you had those experiences. I know what you mean about one person putting you off them forever. Like you, I've had mixed experiences over the years and it's been a long time that I've sought their help. I hope you do reach out when you need to because your life is worth the risk.
one_step_closer- the nurse is therapeutic to be around. The others have a different way of communicating with me. I think it's down to her communication skills and empathy. I find empathy is lacking with some staff.