It's absolutely about punishment. My window for purging the food is totally gone, so I need to punish myself in some other way. I'm going to try working out for a couple of hours to see if I can avoid this self-injury relapse.
I think I've been feeling extremely emotionally fragile lately, you're right about that. I've often wondered if I should be seeing a therapist, but my own sense of pride gets in my way. I really don't want my family members to know I'm struggling.
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