Well, I guess my decisions been made for me, I went downstairs becuase I just couldn't hold in my anger anymore. I told him in a creepily calm voice that I was so mad at him that I wanted to kill him, stab him in the gut until he died. Of course this didn't go over very well. He got right in my face and started yelling at me and punching the door right beside my head, his nose was touching mine I could smell the alcohol on his breath and could feel spit hitting my cheeks. This went on for a few minutes but I wasn't scared even though I knew I should be. My mom convinced him to back away so I went into the kitchen to get some water and he followed me. He yelled about how we blame him for everything and tried to pick out our faults and make us feel as bad as I'm guessing he feels. Then he went off again because I wasn't having it, I calmly told him that his drinking is the problem right now not me and my mother. He punched the fridge beside my head so hard that it left a dent and bits of plastic flew off, kicked some cupboards until they came off their hinges, punched the ones too high to kick, threw things. The whole time he was screaming "Call the cops then! Put me in jail! Call the cops! I f&%*ing dare you!" So I said that, okay if he wanted it that way I would call the cops so I went upstairs to get my cell phone to call. What did I care if he had to spend the night in the drunk tank if he was acting like this. Our kitchen is literally destroyed. My mom followed me and said "No, don't call the cops. Don't call them" and reassuring him that I wasn't going to call. She told me to just go into my room because I was making things worse and don't call the cops. So I did what she said, I'm still sooo sooo angry right now even though I still look calm on the outside, I REALLY want to cut but I don't want to stress my mom out more. I'm supposed to be at work in 5 hours but I really want to call in sick and stay in bed especially since I was woken up by him at 1:40am and now its 5:15am and I haven't had any sleep. I would feel really guilty if I didn't go to work though, is this even an appropriate reason for missing work?
Anyways, I figure he's going to apologise and in a few days, maybe a week mom will forgive him and things will be back to normal again. But you know what, I'm not going to forgive him this time. I'm telling mom and him once he's sobered up that they have a few choices
1. He and my mom start trying to find help be it counselling, AA, Alanon or other the very next day.
2. He leaves within a week because this isn't fair to me and my younger brothers
3. If they do neither of these things, I'm going to go live my grandma.
This is her second alcoholic boyfriend and I'm sick of it. This is defineatly not a healthy enviroment for me and I need to do something about it. I hope I'm making the right decision.
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