22-05-2016, 01:10 PM
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Join Date: Nov 2005
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Thanks. Right now I am just really angry at myself for not being strong enough. The police blackmailed me/coerced me into not pressing charges now they "cannot find" my report. I am moving so I am trying to tell myself to let go of the fact that things I needed were destroyed in the assault. When I look at my bruises I get more angry at myself.
I feel transient/ homeless because I am moving under duress- last night had to sleep with ear plugs because of noisy neighbours. I relapsed re: self harm- but I didn't tell my new therapist. I did talk about my "new" habit of drinking (one beer with a meal a week ago)- but as I don't have a "drinking problem" they think it is because I never relax so I feel guilty about it.
I still feel suicidal but I don't trust the therapist enough yet.
I have a support worker so I think I can manage my care myself.
I am burnt out beyond recovery but I don't know where to turn. I am afraid that I will make a mistake because of my depression- though I don't know if the revised meds are kicking in yet...
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~Happy tomatoes together we will be~
You say toe- may- toe, I say toe- mah- toe:
Let's call the whole thing- red
“ It’s time to lead the third revolution, which is not to say we want to be at the top of the world, but to say we want to change the world. Because the way the world has been designed by men is not working. It’s not working for women, it’s not working for men,
it’s not working for polar bears.” Arianna Huffington 2014
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