So guys I'm confused, I've been self harming for the past 3 years. I only did when something bothered me or made me mad and upset but now I like doing it. I know it's bad and can be dangerous thing but it's a new feeling that I haven't had for the past 3 years. I do it randomly I'll purposely go to my room to do it so it's not like I'm exactly bored. But I don't know why I do it either. Whenever I look at my new scars I smile, they make me happy, even tho it wasn't something I overcame and self harmed, but just because I wanted to. I actually get frustrated that all my scars that I had are gone, but now I have a bunch of them but still want more even tho I can still see the ones i recently did. Can anyone help me understand that better or knows what I'm going thru.