Thanks for your continued support.
My current psychiatrist is quite anti every kind of treatment for BPD, he's working in the hospital this week so isn't in the health centre where my CPN works so she won't be able to talk to him about the possible admission plan until at least next week. It's hard not knowing where I'm at with things. I didn't phone my CPN today, I stayed in bed late then went somewhere on the train and then it was after my CPN finished. I could phone the crisis team but don't really find them helpful. Nothing is helping. I have bought tablets but don't know if I will be able to swallow them or not or even if I'll be brave enough to attempt to swallow them.
There are some groups that I used to go to but haven't been able to make it out of bed on time for them for a while. I don't have enough motivation to go to them because I'm not really interested in anything and I'm basically just crap at getting out of bed at a reasonable time.